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17/01/25 - Card divination

I have a theory on how card divination can really work. I think by forcing yourself to interpret the meanings of the cards (with or without a guide), it brings forth the thoughts in your subconscious that you're ignoring for whatever reason but are probably true. I bet this could work with any set of playing cards.

16/01/25

Early 2010s Lily Singh is so hot... like she's kind of assertive and mean but it's nice. she dresses so handsome and is so pretty. um. I watched "T. blockers" (2023) and thought it was nice, Sophie character felt a bit disposed of. Is it because of the mysterious goop?

23/12/24

Does it count as promotion if i make a tv tropes page for my webcomic or no

21/12/24

I just feel like I'm the only one putting effort into this parasocial relationship.

20/12/24

My next project will be a gacha life mini movie (30 minutes to an hour long hopefully) with a musical sequence in it too. It will specifically be gacha life because I think all the other ones have ugly garish displays.

15/12/24 - Justin Bieber

I fell into an old memes (mid to late 2000s - early to mid 2010s) rabbit hole on pinterest lately, so here.

12/12/24

I need every kid's youtube channel youtuber to quit and make videos talking about their experiences making the kids content so bad. What goes through a person's mind while they are screaming at a camera "TODAY WE ARE GOING TO BE PLAYING EXTREME HIDE AND SEEK FOR 24 HOURS" ? (Probably increasing the number of their bank account). Anyways, It'd be funny and great for that to happen, partially because I kind of have nostalgia for some of them...... i missss themmmm pleaseeeeee commmmeeee bacccckkkkk tooooo mmeeeee waaaahhhhh iiiiii mmmmiisss yyyyyyyouuuu pleeeeeaaaasssseeeeeee plllllleeeeeaaaassseeee mmmmmmmooooooommmmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyy

09/12/24

Sometimes I worry that because I'm such a shut-in, my characters and stories don't feel real since I haven't been basing them off things from actual real life out in the widerness, but then I remember that the world does not exist and everything and everyone is fake.

08/12/24

Tommorow I have to publish a 5 page update of the red eyed sheet (my webcomic) and i'm really scared because I drew those pages like 2-3 months ago when I was going through something and they look weird..... also the plot beat is a little bizzare (to me, because I forget parts of my own comic so I don't have contexts) so I'm scared about that too. Comics!! :D.

08/12/24

Fun Fact: eating any food that doesn't have atleast 2 healthline articles outlining it's health benefits is illegal and punishable by death.

03/12/24

idea: make a character who is genuinely just you, make them really sexy, release it out into the world to see how people treat&talk about the character. Boom! who needs a therapist or psychiatrist(is that how you spell it..) when you have random strangers on the internet?

02/12/24 ~ The Substance movie

I watched The Substance movie. I thought it was good and I liked it. I liked the soundtrack and score. I loved Elizabeth, Sue and of course Elizasue u.u as characters.

The claustrophobic cinematography was great. I liked the colors of the movie. It was a very well-made movie.

26/11/24 ~ Wicked movie

I watched the Wicked movie and I thought it was a well crafted film. I enjoyed the choreography, plot, music, and characters. I thought Fiyero, Elphaba, and Glenda/Glinda were all lovely and well crafted characters. My favorite songs was "No one mourns the wicked" and "What is this feeling?". I highly reccomend the film. I have never seen the musical.

26/11/24

napoleon x boxer (the Animal Farm characters)

20/11/24

when people in media analysis videos talk about the motivations of a character and add "-That doesn't mean their actions are justified" after...like what are you gonna do if I do justify their actions in my head?

#justiceisfakeandentirelymadeup

17/11/24 ~ Literally my Life by MyLifeAsEva

The story told in the song "Literally My Life" by MyLifeAsEva is really interesting. The main character (pov character) is someone who avoids real life in order to escape into a fake, perfect version of reality created from the artifica, "aesthetic'" pictures posted online. In the beginning of the music video, mc declines an invitation to a party to be alone in her room looking at these photos and imagining herself living a fantasy life, in which partying is one of the fantasies. She sings the lyric "I still can't find a bae" as the video shows her not noticing a boy trying to ask her out because she's distracted looking at her phone.

The song ends with her trying to live out her fantasies in real life and it not being up to par, then one of her guy classmates shows up at her house and asks her to hang out, making her realize that the way she's been missing out on real life to go live an imaginary life through the online world. it would've kind of funny(and more to my taste) if it ended with some kind of harrowing ending where she's just stuck fantasizing forever, but it's a sane song. These are some lyrics are kind of stood out to me because I thought they were interesting (for the story of the song)

I like the last lyrics especially because it's clear the main character got these ideas just from the images that Kylie Jenner(I assume that's who is being talked about...) posted on instagram at the time. Her fantasy life is so oddly specific in a way that can only happen if you see it through aesthetic moodboards and collages.

I think it's such a shame that her audience was way too young to properly understand the message of the song and ended up actually using the song/music vdeo as their "fantasy" for highschool while living out the exact tale of the main character. I'm sure Eva, as a content creator and influencer at the time who was widely admired, put a lot of her own thoughts into the song about the internet and the culture at the time (early-to-mid 2010s). It's almost like she was warning her audience.

I've been interested in the 2010s internet culture lately, so I'll probably make up some characters and a story setting place in that time soon. Yeah, that'll be fun.

12/11/24

I don't like updating my RSS feed because I don't want anyone to know that I'm doing anything ever.

I love going through my old sketchbooks so I can see glimpses into to what inner conflict I was battling at that time (through either my drawings changing subject or scattered jottings on the page)